Food for thought

The butterfly counts not months
but moments,
and has time enough.

Rabindranath Tagore

A sunny day in my garden,
surrounded by it's beautiful inhabitants,
always makes me feel quiet and peaceful.

Have a wonderful weekend :)

Thoughts over tea

You can search throughout the entire universe
for someone who is more deserving

of your love and affection than you are yourself,

and that person is not to be found anywhere.

You yourself,

as much as anybody in the entire universe

deserve your love and affection.

Buddha

Today I am feeling much better again, it is always a relieve to share the dark moments of personal failure with someone or to write it down. This way you can place them in the light and in the light everything seems less intimidating then in the shadow.

I read this saying of the Buddha this morning and it made me smile. I can look at the mistakes of others with love but despite myself when I am struggling with my own lessons. By reading this I realized that I should treat my self with the same amount of love that I can feel for others. This saying really moved me and while drinking a cup of tea in the sun I felt tears in my eyes but I didn't felt sad at all anymore :)

Every time when I have the feeling that I have learnt another lesson I feel the happy need to clean myself and my house hihi. So today I am cleaning my home and I have all the windows open to let the fresh air come in. The sun even shines and while listening to Mozart I am washing my hair and clothes. It feels like a lovely new beginning, two steps forward.... :)

The burden of the self is lightened with I laugh at myself.

Rabindranath Tagore

Reading; Tagore

"When I stand before thee at the day's end,

thou shalt see my scars and know that I had my wounds

and also my healing."

Rabindranath Tagore

Tonight I read this beautiful saying by Tagore again. It made me realize that a lot had changed since the last time I read it. The words have a completely different meaning to me now. And I want to share the reason why with you :)

Since six months I have a new relationship which is very warm and beautiful but also very confronting. In our relationships with family, friends and lovers we see ourselves confronted with things about ourselves that we don't notice when we are alone ;)

I suddenly felt my scars from the past itching again and old insecurities and fears suddenly were there again. It was a great disappointment because I thought that when I would find true love it would all go away, conquered by love hihi.

But then something beautiful happened, instead of hiding them away again like I have done for years, I showed them to my love. I was terrified for his reaction but he looked at my ignorance with the same loving eye as he looks at my abilities.At that moment I realized that by facing my fears and ignorance I released myself from a great weight that I have carried around for a long time. I was searching for certain answers in all kinds of books, but I had them within me all along :))

Tonight I read the words of Tagore again just like I have done years ago, but it feels different now. It feels like there is a tiny plant growing inside of me which is filled with love. It grows at the same spot where I once hided my fear and shame. There is room now for it to grow.... :))

So far this 'sharing' post :) I wish you a lovely day and leave you with another saying of Tagore which I dedicate to Toek; the gentle warm-hearted man I truly love :))

"Clouds come floating into my life,
no longer to carry rain or usher storm,
but to add color to my sunset sky."